Day 5
1Corinthians 10:12-13, Galatians 5:16-26
God you have given me a way out of temptation, you have made
it clear the specific times I struggle.
Now please help me to stop and think, not to act in haste or to be
motivated by desperation, but to be wise.
I want to be able to see beyond my temporary need for food and out to
the far reaches of victory, eternal glory and life everlasting. I can’t see right now how my problem with
food could get in the way of my salvation yet I can already see how it has
prevented me from having a deeper relationship with my Redeemer. If time and again I seek comfort or pleasure
in food and not Him I slowly distort my view of him and say to my heart, “He is
not enough.”
I am feeling like a need to take a breather and take in all
that I am discovering about myself and my addictions. There I said it! I have avoided using that word because to me
it is ugly and not my problem. I heard
recently that people often make incremental progress in their faith rather than
dramatic big leap changes and I would be apt to agree with that. This however feels like one of those moments
of serious life change.
Part of me fears that when this study is over or life gets
carried away that I will fall back into my old patterns or that I may even
replace this food addiction with a new one.
When I stepped on the scale this morning and had not seen a change I was
disappointed, but I heard God gently whisper in my heart “Is this about looking
better? Or do you want to draw closer to
me?” If my only goal is to look better,
get attention, have smaller clothes and feel more attractive then it will not last
and my fears will become a reality. If I
replace this idol of food with a desire for attention then I am back where I
started. I see it in my blog too. I’ve already had ideas about how to turn my
journal into a series, but am I motivated by the idea of people reading my work
or by the earnest desire to share this breakthrough so that others may be
blessed by it. These very real and raw
emotions are hard to decipher.
With my Bible open, drawn to the already underlined
portions, I see the answer. It is found
in Galatians 5:16-26. Let me dive into
Your Word today Lord, hungry and burning with passion for something lasting,
let me seek you!
My journal companion while working through the Made to Crave 21 day challenge and the book Made to Crave.
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